Hillary Hand

3 albums

Hillary's music would be described as a synthesis of indie pop, folk rock, and synth pop. Influential musicians include, Feist, Cat Power, Lana Del Rey, Metric, Blondie, and Fiona Apple.

When listening to Hillary you would never know that this talented songwriter, vocalist, and pianist has only been writing songs since 2011. While this endearing Colorado born musician has been playing piano since the age of 6, it took her 17 years to put the pen to paper and write her first song.

Unlike many her age, she didn't spend her time walled up, glued to a screen, or caught up in the tedium of everyday life. Traveling the world, finding love, and starting a family, her busy life is quite clearly a pool of inspiration that she draws from.

She currently lives in Colorado Springs with her husband, son, and two mischievous cats.

Music

18 songs
Song
Length
Actions
1
California Sun In My Head
04:46

Lyrics:

Holidays with you in California sun You’ve got the sea in your reflection and summers on the run Where did the time go, what are we waiting for Let’s sail away see our reflections in oceans across the world The sand beneath my feet, love Has got me longing and dreaming of, but don’t be fooled by the hard days Don’t be fooled by the careless mistakes I’ve made Lets begin with a new start forget the proudness of our hearts Don’t be fooled by my give and take, don’t be fooled by the lies and the hate Know that we’re better when we see how one without the other can be Holidays with you in California Sun We’ve got the tow of us together forget what the other’s done Where has our love gone, now my hearts on the run Just chase me to another ocean where summer’s just begun The sand beneath my feet, love Has got me longing and dreaming of, but don’t be fooled by the hard days Don’t be fooled by the careless mistakes I’ve made Lets begin with a new start forget the proudness of our hearts Don’t be fooled by my give and take, don’t be fooled by the lies and the hate Know that we’re better when we see how one without the other can be Two of us together, oceans across the world…
1
California Sun (Instrumental)
Instrumental
04:46
2
In My Head In My Head
04:23

Lyrics:

Had it in my head, that you were right for me Trusted you instead, it was hypocrisy But it all is over now, all the dreams that I once had have fallen away from me I’ll never see you again, I’ll never touch your skin I’ll never see a trace of your lovely face Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh What was it that you said, you said you would marry me I imagined ahead, Imagined what it’d be But it all is over now, all the dreams that I once had have fallen away from me Falling by the way side can’t catch a break Can’t stop thinking about all that is at stake The future’s got me thinkin’ bout the past Got me bringin’ up all my old ugly masks I’ll never see you again, I’ll never touch your skin I’ll never see a trace of your lovely face (x2) I’ll never see you again
1
In My Head (Instrumental)
Instrumental
04:23
3
04:12

Lyrics:

Can’t take away the words I said, to you Can’t fix this broken world, can’t bring to life what is now gone Feel like a petrified fool, forcing everybody’s soul You are so beautiful, you’re a bit unstable Open up your mind open up your eyes, darkness has taken over your insides You’re skin and bones and you do not know you’re picking up the crumbs falling off of the table you are so beautiful, you’re a bit unstable fighting with my flesh has more to do, with loving me, forgetting you but take piece of me take a piece of you, put it together sticks like glue I want more of you and less of me, rip me apart and set me free Open up your mind open up your eyes, darkness has taken over your insides You’re skin and bones and you do not know you’re picking up the crumbs falling off of the table you are so beautiful, you’re a bit unstable you’re a bit unstable, you’re a bit unstable
1
Unstable (Instrumental)
Instrumental
04:12

Lyrics:

I can’t move on from, I can’t move on from, I can’t move on from this place Oh oh oh ohhhhhh, oh oh oh ohhhhhh, oh oh oh ohhhhhh, Don’t tell me that it’s over, don’t tell me it’s the end Cause I’ve made a lot of mistakes and you’ve made a lot of mistakes And together mmmm we’ll pay the price God only knows what my heart will not say, gone goes the night and the stars say goodbye step into light when my hearts out of sight soundless the beat I’m no longer alive I can’t move on from, I can’t move on from, I can’t move on from, I can’t move on from this place Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ahhhhh God only knows what my heart will not say, gone goes the night and the stars say goodbye step into light when my hearts out of sight soundless the beat I’m no longer alive I can’t move on from, I can’t move on from, I can’t move on from, I can’t move on from this place
1
Don't (Instrumental)
Instrumental
03:04
5
Hit The Ground Somebody Pinch Me
04:04

Lyrics:

Gonna hit the ground, gonna make a sound, what goes on up must soon come down Gonna pick fight, gonna let in burn, I won’t give up I’ll do it right Just like I said so I’ll keep it real hold my hands one wheel Go go go until my heart stops, slow slow slow until we flip flop I’ll keep it real hold my hands one wheel Go go go until my heart stops, slow slow slow until we flip flop Gonna hit the ground, gonna make a sound, sometimes this life just brings you down Gonna hit the ground Gonna use my words, gonna sound absurd, with my last breath I’ll make it work I’ll keep it real hold my hands one wheel Go go go until my heart stops, slow slow slow until we flip flop I’ll keep it real hold my hands one wheel Go go go until my heart stops, slow slow slow until we flip flop
1
Hit The Ground (Instrumental)
Instrumental
04:03
6
04:30

Lyrics:

Why can’t I find the pieces to this puzzle, I’ve got red eyes from all these things that don’t fit together, on another, and More days go by, and yet I’m still trying I feel like an animal ready to fly, but I’m stick inside all these questions in my mind Just look around you so you remember, all that I gave you but you still want more Just let me hold you through this war in your heart I’ll take you deeper in all the wonders, there’s nothing greater I’ll calm the thunder Through all the rainstorms rolling around in your head Mmmm, mmmm, mmmm, mmmmm, mmmm, mmmm, Let’s go and take the pieces of our puzzles Throw them off a cliff and follow after, because everything will come together Every step I take, is another day Just look around you so you remember, all that I gave you but you still want more Just let me hold you through this war in your heart I’ll take you deeper in all the wonders, there’s nothing greater I’ll calm the thunder Through all the rainstorms rolling around in your head Mmmm, mmmm, mmmm, mmmmm, mmmm, mmmm, Mmmm, mmmm, mmmm, mmmmm, mmmm, mmmm,
1
Puzzles (Instrumental)
Instrumental
04:30
7
03:55

Lyrics:

Saw the sunrise, in your eyes Made me feel so alive Now I’m falling, no denying You make me feel like I can fly Oh oh oh I’m such a fool, misled it’s downright cruel Lost control of my mind, oh this love is hard to find Feel the rush of, your blood It’s filling up my mind Heard your heart break, so you might say Mine is breaking all the same Now somebody pinch me I swear it’s a dream Tingling all over even in my brain It’s scratching an itch that no longer remains How can this effect me, you’ve taken your aim and Bang bang, now my heart stopped beating Bang bang, I’m no longer breathing Now watch me fall in love with you Oh oh oh I’m such a fool, misled it’s downright cruel Lost control of my mind, oh this love is hard to find
1
Sunrise (Instrumental)
Instrumental
03:55
8
Livin' My Life In My Head
04:19

Lyrics:

I will meet you on the other side of this, holding breath and turning blue can’t stop my lungs from breathing you the trouble is that my soul is craving more makes me wonder what all of this is for slowly taking all your time the battlefield is rigged with mines one wrong step before I’m looking at my body on the floor go and save yourself from heartache, nothing’s worth hearing your heart break said goodbye this time around what’s lost now wanting to be found saw your picture on the wall don’t think it affected me at all the trouble is that my heart is craving you now that I’m living in someone else’s shoes go and save yourself form heartache, we are so much more than heart break giving up is so easy to do, but what’s harder is not living my life with you (x2) living my life with you go and save yourself from heartache, we are so much more than heartbreak giving up is so easy to do, but what’s harder is not living my life with you
1
Livin' My Life (Instrumental)
Instrumental
04:19
9
04:30

Lyrics:

I’m a little on the blue side, baby don’t you wanna cheer me up, honey don’t you wanna laugh with me like the old days don’t you wanna see me smile again we’ve laid our lives out on the floor If we’re not careful we’ll be wanting more I wanna laugh with you like the old days I wanna see you smile again I have been hungry all these years, fighting back all my aching tears watching our lives just pass us by, acting like everything’s just fine I’m a little on the blue side, baby don’t you wanna cheer me up, honey don’t you wanna laugh with me like the old days don’t you wanna see me smile again
1
Blue Side (Instrumental)
Instrumental
04:30
10
02:49

Lyrics:

I have really gotten over you, I paid the retribution to thanks to our unraveled heart strings, and the sorrow love always brings what took you so long, what took you so long to follow me or let me be I pulled you in you shut me out, and overpraised my love and doubt I’m disarmed with my own bleeding, while shadows drape around my face I wonder why I, wonder why I followed you my baby blue you pulled me in I shut you out, now tell me what your all about cause i’m fallin’ deeper without you and i’m tearing at the seams, again what took you so long what took you so long to follow me or let me be i pulled you in your shut me out and overpraised my love and doubt i wonder why I wonder why I followed you my baby blue you pulled me in I shut you out, now tell me what you’re all about
1
Disarmed (Instrumental)
Instrumental
02:49
2
Disarmed (Background Vocals)
Background Vocals
02:49
11
04:11

Lyrics:

Oh domino why don't you fall just let it go why don't you bring all of us down, why don't you wipe away that frown Shades take away the grey of a hornets bitter sound this place is bringin you down, oh domino don't hit the ground Envy brings you broken skies and renders all of the lies manifested secrets of a sinking ship of old The pieces fall on us, consumed with your weariness of heart You tell yourself the daggers on the front porch lookin in the curtain's drawn, but no one's around, this desert land, is makin you drown Oh domino why don't you fall just let it go our hands are tied from our distant lives, of a greater love, one that survives
1
Domino (Instrumental)
Instrumental
04:14
12
03:04

Lyrics:

I was made of paper my lines were folder by you please tape me back together and tell me what I should do cause I’m blowin’ away in the wind and I’ll float on this thought until I reach my end You cut out my hair and told me I was beautiful that the color of my eyes were really something wonderful but I didn’t believe a word you had said so I tore off my long brown hair right from my head I wanted to be just like all of the other paper dolls with curved lines, a reflection of something captivating oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh oh I wanted to be just like all of the other paper dolls with curved lines, a reflection of something captivating oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh I was made of paper my lines were folded by you
1
Paper Doll (Instrumental)
Instrumental
03:04
13
Said And Done Paper Doll EP
04:22

Lyrics:

After it was all said and done in the rising of the sun I called your name Who am I to sing this lullaby about the Son who died for me I hung my head in shame, as you hung on the cross to bear the blame n my name, by then you knew my name Talk to me my darling I'm listening my darling Its time for you to shut out the lights I have counted my life but a loss, and placed it at the cross with your blood You found me in the fellowship of grace, because you took my place to this day Darling don't hang your head, just trust me instead In my name, you'll never be the same Talk to me my darling, I'm listening my darling It's time for you to shut out the lights After it was all said and done, I thanked Your only Song for his grace Who am I to pass the people by, and let them wonder why you died
1
Said And Done (Instrumental)
Instrumental
04:28
14
Say Goodbye Paper Doll EP
02:54

Lyrics:

Say goodbye and make amends, to your cat your family and your friend this is all I have to give, in fear of knowing where to live and God knows why I have everything i ever needed it’s a part of me that died a part of me that lied Fake your smile it may be awhile til your heart stops beating, your heart stops beating try and try to cry but your tears are dry your tears are dry you tears are dry where’s your jaded heart, where’s your desire to feel apart, to feel apart you call your mother on the phone, you’re feeling sad and so alone hear your cat holler, meow, wonder where your friends are now Fake your smile it may be awhile til your heart stops beating, your heart stops beating try and try to cry but your tears are dry your tears are dry you tears are dry where’s your jaded heart, where’s your desire to feel apart, to feel apart
1
Say Goodbye (Instrumental)
Instrumental
02:53
15
Take Me Away Paper Doll EP
03:17

Lyrics:

Is it my imagination in the darkest of nights, of holding you have my dreams come true blue eyed and weightless like a child’s first smile did I picture you perfect with your voice on my chest discussing providence or God”s only word How we”re not bonded to this forsaken world Your lips on my nose I can’t help but wonder how this story goes One foot after another, one step at a time we have the rest of our lives I want to know your face like the back of my hand to kiss your lips just because I can Your fingers on my palm, how could anyone, stay slightly calm I’ll take, this chance on you Take me away, and don’t say we’ll be back again one day I’ll be your best friend, I’ll be your lover I’ll marry you and be your treasure to discover I’ll be your one and only
1
Take Me Away (Instrumental)
Instrumental
03:23
16
Hangin' On In My Head
03:56

Lyrics:

I lost myself at the bottom of the throttle got caught up in your lies I’ll drive this road, til’ I reach the other side of your love I’m still screamin’ from above your heart, heart Please don’t keep me hangin’ on by a thread You should know that this is better off dead Seemed like life was sunny in head Don’t tell me this should be left unsaid Don’t give me your sympathy you know I’ve got this on my own If you knew anything of me you’de know I’m better off alone You’de know I’m better of alone You lost yourself, at the bottom of the bottle let me go with your lies It felt so right to say goodbye to your love, I’m still screamin’ from above your Heart heart Please don’t keep me hangin’ on by a thread You should know that this is better off dead Seemed like life was sunny in head Don’t tell me this should be left unsaid Don’t give me your sympathy you know I’ve got this on my own If you knew anything of me you’de know I’m better off alone You’de know I’m better of alone
1
Hangin' On (Instrumental)
Instrumental
03:56
17
Run Like A Rabbit Paper Doll EP
03:34

Lyrics:

I can feel the toxins pouring out your head, and it tells me that you want to be alone One of us has got to have his head on his shoulders, before this water reaches boiling point And I feel like a rabbit, feel like a rabbit from my feet up to my head, But I know that if I run I’ll end up dead Take a break and swallow up your pride, my love, before you swallow up my broken heart Let’s not make a deal of this to save tomorrow, cause I know I’ll be missin’ you come morning time And I feel like a rabbit, feel like a rabbit, feel like a rabbit, feel like a rabbit, feel like a rabbit run like a rabbit run From my feet to my head and my heart it has bled, for days on end, for days on end, and I’ll take it again I’ll take it all again And I feel like a rabbit, feel like a rabbit, feel like a rabbit, feel like a rabbit, feel like a rabbit run like a rabbit run I can feel the weight lifting off your shoulders, while I’m drowning six feet underneath your heart
1
Run Like A Rabbit (Instrumental)
Instrumental
03:34
18
Tameless Tongues Paper Doll EP
03:54

Lyrics:

If I called you by your name, boy, would you look, would you look, would you look my way I’ll be singing like a sparrow, can you feel, can you feel, can you feel it in your veins You’ve got me in your head, you’ve got me in your lungs, you’ve got me in your heart, on the tip of your tongue and you’ve kept me in the dark Likewise, you feed me from the ashes, all that’s left is a scar ignited by a spark don’t fake it, I’ll peel you like an onion, let it burn, let it burn let it burn your eyes You’ve got me in your head, you’ve got me in your lungs, you’ve got me in your heart, on the tip of your tongue and you’ve kept me in the dark When you’re laughing and smiling and finally deciding to seek for the things in your life that have made you so humble and meek I’ll be waiting and scheming to bring you on down to your knees bring you back to be lonesome and haunted, begging me please You’ve got me in your head, you’ve got me in your lungs, you’ve got me in your heart, on the tip of your tongue and you’ve kept me in the dark
1
Tameless Tongues (Instrumental)
Instrumental
03:53